Why am I such a crap friend?

Today, I was gonna be going to the cinema with my friends, I was looking forward to it, but, I have no confidence when it comes to being social. Alot of the time when my friends call for me, I'll say no because I'm kinda a recluse. And so, I didn't go with my friends in the end, and now I feel I've let them down and feel like a terrible friend, I don't deserve them, they're too good for me.

My Friend C.

As I write this, my face is wet with tears, no, not of sorrow, I don't really know why they are there, they just are. Maybe it's because I've been able to tell my friend C certain things today. There are still things I wish to tell them, and maybe, in time, and with courage, I'll be able to tell them what I need to say, when that day comes, I might let you know, I might not, I guess you'll have to wait and see.

Before I go, I have just ine more thing to say.

Thank you C, for being such a great friend, for being there, you mean so much to me, I don't know how to tell you what I want to say, but I'm sure you'll know sooner or later.

I'm a bad Tea Pot.

Here's a random bad version of "I'm a Little Tea Pot" that I just came up with.

I'm a little Tea Pot short and stout;
Heres my handle and heres my spout;
Let me stick it in you and move it about;
Tip me over and white stuff comes out.

(Trust me, it ain't milk.)
Tell me what you think people.
:D